Reflection: Week 1

As I went through the week I felt really good about this process! However, I couldn't quite figure out why. I knew there were a few times when I was stressed out about an interaction I had, or about school and when I got home, I had "other things to do" and got to escape.

So this idea has been in the works for myself for a few weeks now. I thought, as mentioned above that it would just give me an escape or another world aside from teaching so I can make sure I am not so emotionally attached to it. I also thought by having it be a public(but small) forum that I would feel silly not meeting these goals.

I loved the pressure that I felt when I could not think of something creative to do. I loved the drive that I had when Geebi and I were picking out a recipe so I could cook something I've never cooked before. I like how I'm using my resources(friends, internet, books) that I've had for years, and just never found the time to do!

A conversation with my friend Jenny made me realize my real intent in doing this little project. I am great at following through(or very apologetic if I can't) on promises I make to others, whether they be small(when I'll be somewhere) or big(trusting that they can depend on me). At work, I won't sleep/eat until everything is not only done, but done well. I strive really hard to ensure that my word means something. However, its very rare that I make and keep a commitment to myself. This is what its all about.

I want to make this commitment to myself, that my life will be more then teaching. I want to make a commitment to myself that I deserve to experience all there is to life, without guilt or pain. I want to commit to myself that my goal is actually a process. The goal here is the journey, each individual category each week, yet the sum of its parts should give me more value in life and make me more happy overall! While I didn't realize this right away, I do believe that so far this is the intent! It is valuing myself and treating myself as I do others!

Pretty good revelation for my first week?